It’s about 8:30 on Friday evening. I have a sinus headache. I’ve taken Tylenol and Benadryl; it’s all I can do. My bum knee kept me up tossing and turning for over an hour last night before I finally fell asleep. Then, the room air conditioner woke me up around 12:30 this morning, making some strange noises. It took me a while to fall back asleep. I was up at 6:30 this morning for work.
We found out today we need to replace Coz’s Saturn. Its inspection had expired last month, and the garage said it’d be at least $2,000 to repair. We’re looking to replace that, as well as my POS truck.
I left work today around 2 o’clock, came home and promptly fell asleep on the couch for 2 hours. I have GOT to get more sleep at night.
As we were driving to the garage to pick up the car, Coz says to me “I don’t know how to put this romantically, but I’ve been thinking about it and I think we should get married”. What a charmer, right? Well, we’ve been discussing it for some time now anyhow. I had told him at some point in the past that a prenuptial agreement would’ve saved his ass in his first divorce, as his ex-wife went right for the jugular and is still hanging on. I also told him I’d have no problem with one for us, so he’s anxious to get this done. I’m having a hard time finding out online how to do this; I’m thinking we’ll have to spring for a lawyer to do this right. He wants to get hitched as soon as possible so I can get picked up on his health insurance. Right now I’m paying about $300 a month for health and dental, and we need that money for two car loans.
As for the pregnancy thing, I’m happy to report I pooped three times today (which is an achievement in itself considering how much cheese I’m craving) and none of them resulted in any fresh blood. I called the OB office to talk to a nurse about things and the woman I spoke to was less than encouraging. My HCG went from 3,900 on Monday to 8,500 on Thursday, which is very encouraging. I’ve been having more spotting though, and I had expected to have less with bring on the antibiotics for going on 4 days now. I had asked the nurse if she thought I could expect the spotting to end by next week, and when I should be retested for the BV. I’m concerned because having BV puts me at a higher risk of miscarriage, and I had no symptoms to begin with so how am I to know it’s resolved? She said they recheck it in a month, and she had no idea when the spotting would end. She then proceeded to tell me I need to leave this to a higher power as there’s nothing that can be done at this stage, that if I’m going to miscarry it’ll happen and there’s nothing I can do about it. She also told me (we were discussing the pelvic rest, which I hate but I’m doing) that I could sit home on my ‘bottom’ and not do anything but this wouldn’t make a difference if something bad is going to happen.
I understand the message she’s saying, from a clinical, medical standpoint. Her delivery however, sucks! You DO NOT tell a newly pregnant woman there’s nothing she can do, if she’s going to miscarry it’ll happen and she’s powerless over it. I happen to disagree strongly with her. I have every intention of staying extremely positive, and I envision myself very pregnant and then with a new baby several times thoughout the day. I am willing it to happen. I’m not thrilled about having to wait until the 28th for the next ultrasound. This may be SOP (standard operating procedure) but I don’t know this, and she certainly didn’t do anything to reassure me. My breasts are still VERY sore though, so I take this as a good sign as well.
On another positive note, my brother and his fiancee were having a huge yard sale full of baby items. My older niece is 4 1/2, and the twins are 13 1/2 months. They set aside the carseat/stroller, the Fisher Price battery operated swing, and the Fisher Price jungle gym saucer thingy. My grandmother has told me she’s going to pay them for all of this for me, and she’s also going to buy us a brand new crib and mattress. She suggested one of the ones that convert to a toddler bed. I’ve got one picked out that’s really nice. I need to call her tomorrow about this. Right now I’m tired (again!), and my head is clogged. I need to rinse my sinuses, I think.
One thing about the marriage bit, I’m not sure what to do about my name. Do I change it? Do I keep my own? Do I hyphenate???? Help!!!
